We often define ourselves by the pieces of life that we have felt good about. The degree, the new job, the achieved goal, the success.  

But what of the failures.....?  Truly. 

What of the moments or years that kicked our ass. What of those moments when o...

The thing about grief & loss is they shatter you, ....but everything & everyone else keep moving.   - so I kept moving, as best I could.

The process of my divorce has been nothing short of death. A death of me, of who I saw myself as, of my drea...

I stopped writing when my divorce process officially began. We had been falling away from one another for years, ...an ocean of difficulties

for us that we were unable to bridge.  It was a time when (as a first) I felt maybe I shouldn't write from my most authentic plac...

So to know someone ... like, to truly feel connection with another, ....to love their Being,... must it be that you've known one another for a significant length of time.  My answer..... Absolutely not.  It can happen in an instant. In one instant. I believe, with my...

Early morning light is as renewing for me as a trip to the sea.

There is something, ....about its promise, ..and constance,  which strengthens me.

I was refreshed last night after a visit with a dear friend.

Let's call her, Beauty,...because that's what she is,... 

S...

I dreamed he was dying. 

I had a nightmare last night that he was leaving Us.

My beautiful boy.  He was trapped underneath a car, neck pinned between the axle or strut,..or something. The woman in the drivers seat flung her door open and was reaching down, between her l...

It's damaging to our souls when we lose a beloved friend, family member or artist to death by their own hand, whether suicide, or overdose.  It stings especialy hard when we take specific pause as a Nation to learn the lurid details surrounding the potential reasoning...

It's time to let it go. 

It, being my recreations of childhood loss.  I no longer must create situations where love is unable to get through.  .... unable to cross over. 

That scenario is OLD.  Old carnage, old karmic suit, ....old imprint.  It is time to un...

We all get to decide what has meaning ... & what doesn't. 

Having moved away from alcohol, ....I've been walking through life more fully aware for the past 6 years or so.
Learning to feel my emotions,  one by one.  &  Slowly.
Sorrow,  Joy, ...Pain, ...Love...

So I've been contemplating the idea of moderation for a long time now,  ...like for at least the past year.

I'm really intrigued by it,  these rattly thoughts. 

"maybe"

"i wonder IF..."

"can it be done?"

"why does it work for some & not others?"

"maybe I'm not th...